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Well it is again that time of the year. In less than 12 hours, we will all be displaced 1 year into the future... Well not exactly, but I think you get my drift.

*Sigh*

This year has been very... restless. Some things happened. Some things didn't. Some were good. Some bad.

I guess it's time to move on.

Anyway, a shoutout to all those who know me XD From the guys from my primary & secondary schools (if any decide to read this), my college buddies, my university pals (Xazaru is the only one consistently reading), my fellow MAAOans (Eisu, Zid, Aimo, Reinselft, Laine, Onion, Aya, Booya, Jive, amongst others), The GLers (HyToFry, Mole, Plexer, Neo, Chuck, -O-, and too many others), people at "The Shop" (Wolf, Dawn, Bryan, Azmin, Shaz, Triona, Ian, Fiezan, Zach, Chris, Arjun, and all the others whom I missed out (I'm lazy to type;P)), and the others whom I have met in life who influenced me in every little way, and I, them.

And to my family (who will probably never ever in their whole lives will read this), thanks.

Thanks for a great year! While not exactly encouraging, I can still bear a smile at such bad times.

I just noticed, for the past 5 years, new years hasn't been a great time for me. Depressing stuff.

No lunch yet.

PS: New Year Resolutions
1. Paint and play my Warmachine army
2. Paint and play my Warhammer 40K armies
3. Draw more
4. Work more. Earn 3k next year.
5. Start on my Engineering Logbook.

PPS: For those who are interested in somehing funny: Viking Kittens - Gay Bar
Of course you could check out Joel Veitch's website...

PPPS: Tsunami Death Toll at 118,000

Found out that the "little tremor" I felt yesterday caused a 10 foot tidal wave to crash into Penang. The wave seemed to have hit the TNB house which was about 20-30 meters away from the beach. I heard that the death toll was not so bad in Malaysia, but reached the thousands in India, Sri Lanka, Thailand, and Indonesia. Approximately 21k+ people died, and many more injured.

I have to consider myself lucky because it could have been me there. We were lucky we left for the roads 2 hours early before impact.

Whatever religion you are following, let's give a moment of silence for the unfortunates.

Listening to the voices. Can you hear them too? They're everywhere!

I wanted to write a rhyme on my Christmas weekend, but couldn't because I can't think at the moment.

Christmas Eve:
Left for Penang at the break of dawn. Spent the whole journey sleeping. Woke up at Georgetown. Had lunch near Komtar. Met with old uni friend. Talked about things that had happened during the 2.5 years we haven't seen each other. Found out that we're each doing well in our own seperate ways. Heh.

Went to the TNB house in Tanjung Bungah (where we're staying). BIG huge house. Set a little corner for myself in the TV room and proceeded to paint my WARMACHINES! figs :) Dinner was at Gurney Drive and was a rather exciting affair as after the dinner (which was char kuey teow and pasembor), the MPP (Majlis Perbandaran Penang) decided to start ticketing vehicles parked illegally near the food area. 30 minutes later we were safe from the local authorities and were in Batu Feringgi. This place is cool. It has two names. Batu Feringgi And Batu Feringhi. And so, I bought Shaun of The Dead for RM8 there. They have lots of imitation products there, but I didn't buy any. I did however bought 2 superglue packs and 3 Nescafe tins at the nearby 7-Eleven.

Continued painting up till 3 am (After watching the hilariously funny SotD). Slept on the couch in the TV room.

Christmas Day:

Moved to a proper bed after my dad removed me from my couch to watch TV at 8am. Properly woke up at 11am. Went and painted a bit more before leaving the house to visit Kok Lek Si Temple near Bukit Bendera. The place was pretty large, and was extremely impressive. Took pictures, and climbed the Pagoda. I lost count of how many floors the pagoda had.

After that, we had lunch and went back to the TNB house. I continued painting while my cousins went to swim in the sea. Come 7 pm, my parents and I had dinner with my old uni friend I met up the day before and her mother. So much to talk about! Topics that came about were: work, future plans, work, food, travelling, mutual friends, mutual friends getting married, work. Hahahaha. She works in Pasir Gudang, Johor at the YTL powerstation. And dinner was excellent!

Went back to the TNB house and watched TV while painting. Slept around 3am after watching Die Hard. Good movie.

Boxing Day:

Again, I was removed from the couch at 8am. Woke up at 8+am when I felt the bed shake. Shrugged it off and continued sleeping till 9am. Later heard that the shaking were due to tremors emanating from Sumatra. Luckily nothing happened in Malaysia, though I heard that 10 foot waves did hit Penang while a Tsunami did struck Sri Lanka and Madras.

Cleaned up my painting workshop, and left the house at 10 am. Slept most of the way back to PJ. Arrived at house at about 3.05pm and left for Amcorp to attend the Christmas party there.

Received a couple of gifts from friends (Thanks again if you guys are reading this!) and gave out a few gifts myself. Everybody's in a jovial mood. Ended up playing Ginrummy (good party game, without the gambling) At long last, finished the day/night/morning off with a visit to a Mamak to have a drink before leaving for home and getting some sleep.

Lunch was fried meehoon, kankung smabal belacan and sambal petai. Drink was iced Nescafe.

Listening to the office printer

Christmas is in two days time and that means 2004 is almost over. In less than 10 days, we will all be celebrating the new year.

This year has brought some ups and downs to my unchartered course in life. More tales to tell (and keep). Some things are enlightening, some depressings, some anger, some... well some others.

Sometimes you smile, think and then move on. Sometimes you want to stay.

Christmas is supposed to be a merry season. But I don't feel so good this year. Well, I will be in Penang this Christmas with my family (and my extended family whom, a few decided to invite themselves -_-;;;). After that, I'll be busy with work again.

*Sigh*

You know you think too much when... you can't even cheer yourself up. And others can't do it either.

Lunch was pineapple fried rice and tomyam vege. Drink was longan.

Listening to officemates typing on their keyboards

I was listening to the Kickstart Show on Red 104.9 FM on the radio this morning, and they were hosting the usual morning radio talk show about the Nescafe Kickstart (8TV, Fridays, 9pm).

Then I got to thinking about my dream job. I *might* just decide to apply for next year's compo if it were to happen.

Heh. Of course that means taking leave, but yeah... I think it's a good idea. :)

Right now I shall concentrate on my work.

Breakfast was Nescafe Mocha tin drink. After drinking it, I felt a little woozy. I fear that coffee is taking over my life o_O;;;

Listening to Sand In My Shoes - Dido (Life For Rent)

two weeks away feels like the whole world should have changed
but i'm home now, and things still look the same
i think i'll leave it till tomorrow to unpack, try to forget for one more night
that i'm back in my flat
on the road where the cars never stop going through the night
to a life where i can't watch the sun set, i don't have time, i don't have time

i've still got sand in my shoes and i can't shake the thought of you
i should get on, forget you but why would i want to
i know we said goodbye, anything else would have been confused
but i want to see you again

tomorrow's back to work and down to sanity
should run a bath and then clear up the mess i made before i left here
try to remind myself that i was happy before i knew that i could get
on a plane and fly away
from the road where the cars never stop going through the night
to a life where i can watch the sun set and take my time, take all our time

two weeks away, all it takes, to change and turn me around i've fallen
i walked away, and never said, that i wanted to see you again

i've still got sand in my shoes and i can't shake the thought of you
i should get on, forget you but why would i want to
i know we said goodbye, anything else would have been confused
but i want to see you again

Lyrics (c) Dido
Distributed by BMG Music.

Skipped lunch. Not hungry.

Listening to some more silence

Heard that Comic Fiesta 2004 happened last weekend. Sorry couldn't make it to meet up with everybody but I was tied down with work on Saturday and I had a cousin birthday party to attend to on Sunday.

Anyway... stomach ache isn't too bad. I think it has recovered nicely now.

A good thing I forgot to mention that happened over the weekend was the fact that Everton is in second place in the EPL. W00t!

Saw WWE Raw last night. Triple H begging for the World Heavyweight Title Belt. HAHAHAhahahAha. I think Batista will win in the upcoming Elimination Chamber match. Then it will be the end of Evolution.

Breakfast was skipped. Came to work late.

Listening to nothing really

Went back home from work at 8:30 pm last night. Was very very tired. Had dinner at uptown and went to sleep at 9:30 pm.

Woke up at 8:00 am. Feeling rather refreshed. However, since I overslept, I decided to do something that I rarely do to keep myself awake. I'm drinking coffee. Coffee/Choc mix, but still coffee.

Might even go for a second or third cup later on.

Suffered a bad case of diarhorrea yesterday.

Now, it's back to work...

Wheeeeeee~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Breakfast was... a Choc'o'cino or two.

Listening to Those Were The Days - Mary Hopkins

Happy Birthday to the december babies! Kekekeke. Huk huk. T.T HF GL GG.

I'm back to writing my normal stlye of writing, so that means no more of those half-wit posts where I talk to myself.

Here's my current non-work related projects (or stuff that should keep me busy):

1. World of Warcraft WHEN the CD-Key arrives.

2. Warhammer 40K. Paints, modelling and playing.

3. WARMACHINES! Paints, modelling and hopefully playing.

4. Neverwinter Nights. I'm trying to find a nice RP server for this.

5. Puerto Rico. Quick mind bending games. Have only won... 3 times?

6. WWE Raw Deal. Kind of taken a rest.

7. Zzzz...

8. Should probably read a book or something.

9. Keep money. Really tight on cash this month.

10. Draw more. Really really out of it.

11. RP more.

12. Finish the first draft of my PnP RPG system. I really should put this on top priority.

Dinner... skipped. Am on a tight budget.

Listening to...

***Note to the readers: While some of the "inner monologue" written here is true, some of it is not. It's mostly written with good fun intended. If I had offended anyone, please accept my apologies.***

Meh.

What's up now?

I feel old.

Of course you do. You just legally turned 24 on the 4th of December.

I know. That's why I'm feeling down.

You do? What kind of stupid feeling is that? You know how many people out there don't even get to reach the age of 12? You are lucky.

Stop trying to cheer me up.

Maybe you need a muse.

Maybe.

Look, brighten up will you? Some stuff just happens. Life's like that. Repeat after me: I AM NOT FEELING DEPRESSED.

Okay... I am not feeling depressed.

No no no. Say it with feeling. In caps.

... I AM NOT FEELING DEPRESSED.

Again.

I AM NOT FEELING DEPRESSED.

Again!

I AM NOT FEELING DEPRESSED.

And again!

I AM NOT FEELING DEPRESSED!

Once more!

I AM NOT FEELING DEPRESSED!!!

There you go! How do you feel now?

Depressed because I feel like an idiot.

WTF?!

Lunch was Dunkin' Donuts' chicken mayo and mocha donut with 100 plus.

Listening to office colleagues talking in the background

Hm... looks like I'm starting World of Warcraft soon. Booked a copy of the game. Heh.

You should be keeping the money for something else.

Maybe, but I want to play at least 1 MMORPG before I die.

Aren't we a bit morbid today?

I suppose I'll be playing on the Spinebreaker (PvP) Realm. Probably as a Human Rogue or something. Female character too I suppose. Unless I'm bored.

The game looks interesting.

It is :)

Anyway, how's your Warhammer 40K going?

Hmmm... nothing new painted. Yet.

Warmachines?

Same.

What are you doing nowadays anyway? Apart from working, that is.

Uh... Neverwinter Nights. Playing it online. It rocks. That and Puerto Rico.

Bah.

Lunch was skipped. I had 8 hours sleep. And I felt like I needed more.

Listening to silence

Difficult times it is, eh?

Stop thinking about it then.

But I can't.

Well, do something to take your mind of it. You know, like playing Unreal Tournament 2004 or Dungeons and Dragons.

I did that. And at work, there's always something to keep my mind occupied. But when I think about it...

Just don't then.

Like I said before, I can't dammit.

Well, you have to learn to deal with it some time or another. It's already passed. You *can* move on.

I know that, but... *sigh*

You could always download porn.

Can't you be a bit more serious? I mean... sheesh. People could be reading you know.

Hahahaha. Just kidding. But not really. Anyway, I don't know how exactly to help you. I offered advice, but you're not taking any.

I am trying to. Maybe I should just go kill myself.

Oi. Don't do anything stupid you WILL regret. You're kind of sad. Little bit of depression and you're already wanting to commit suicide. You know, there's a reason why they say COMMIT suicide. Once you do it, you CANNOT turn back.

Ok, fine. Maybe if I act all happy everyone else would think I'm okay?

Or maybe they think you're on a sugar high. Or worse, an idiot. And don't you even think of sulking. Sulking's bad. You look like as though you ate your own vomit.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. Blah blah blah. You remind me of my mother.

Well, you can't always win. Life's like that. How else can life go. It gives you something good...

Then takes it away from you.

That's not what I'm going to say. Stop cutting me off. I was about to say 'It gives you something good, and then it stops giving. You have to work to make the good thing better.'

And does that apply in my case?

Well, it can apply. I mean, you've got great things ahead. Maybe it's just not time yet.

How about people who got killed in an accident with their guts hanging out, their brains splattered on the road, and their bodies broken in half?

And then there's that. You can't win them all, right?

Bah.

Lunch was economy rice and orange cordial.