Listening to silence

Difficult times it is, eh?

Stop thinking about it then.

But I can't.

Well, do something to take your mind of it. You know, like playing Unreal Tournament 2004 or Dungeons and Dragons.

I did that. And at work, there's always something to keep my mind occupied. But when I think about it...

Just don't then.

Like I said before, I can't dammit.

Well, you have to learn to deal with it some time or another. It's already passed. You *can* move on.

I know that, but... *sigh*

You could always download porn.

Can't you be a bit more serious? I mean... sheesh. People could be reading you know.

Hahahaha. Just kidding. But not really. Anyway, I don't know how exactly to help you. I offered advice, but you're not taking any.

I am trying to. Maybe I should just go kill myself.

Oi. Don't do anything stupid you WILL regret. You're kind of sad. Little bit of depression and you're already wanting to commit suicide. You know, there's a reason why they say COMMIT suicide. Once you do it, you CANNOT turn back.

Ok, fine. Maybe if I act all happy everyone else would think I'm okay?

Or maybe they think you're on a sugar high. Or worse, an idiot. And don't you even think of sulking. Sulking's bad. You look like as though you ate your own vomit.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. Blah blah blah. You remind me of my mother.

Well, you can't always win. Life's like that. How else can life go. It gives you something good...

Then takes it away from you.

That's not what I'm going to say. Stop cutting me off. I was about to say 'It gives you something good, and then it stops giving. You have to work to make the good thing better.'

And does that apply in my case?

Well, it can apply. I mean, you've got great things ahead. Maybe it's just not time yet.

How about people who got killed in an accident with their guts hanging out, their brains splattered on the road, and their bodies broken in half?

And then there's that. You can't win them all, right?

Bah.

Lunch was economy rice and orange cordial.