Listening to Yellow Taxi Cab - Joni Mitchell

Checking the internet for information:

Acute bronchitis:

* Hacking cough.
* Yellow, white, or green phlegm, usually appearing 24 to 48 hours after a cough.
* Fever, chills.
* Soreness and tightness in chest.
* Some pain below breastbone during deep breathing.
* Some shortness of breath.

What is TB disease?
TB bacteria become active if the immune system can't stop them from growing. The active bacteria begin to multiply in the body and cause TB disease. Some people develop TB disease soon after becoming infected, before their immune system can fight the TB bacteria. Other people may get sick later, when their immune system becomes weak for some reason.
Babies and young children often have weak immune systems. People infected with HIV, the virus that causes AIDS, have very weak immune systems. Other people can have weak immune systems, too, especially people with any of these conditions

* substance abuse
* diabetes mellitus
* silicosis
* cancer of the head or neck
* leukemia or Hodgkin's disease
* severe kidney disease
* low body weight
* certain medical treatments (such as corticosteroid treatment or organ transplants)

Symptoms of TB depend on where in the body the TB bacteria are growing. TB bacteria usually grow in the lungs. TB in the lungs may cause

* a bad cough that lasts longer than 2 weeks
* pain in the chest
* coughing up blood or sputum (phlegm from deep inside the lungs)

Other symptoms of TB disease are

* weakness or fatigue
* weight loss
* no appetite
* chills
* fever
* sweating at night

The more I read... the more I get scared. I've already seen the doctor, but she said to come back only if I coughed up blood again. Bleh. Right now, I am coughing up a lot of mucus and phlegm. Ugh. Coughing's getting kinda bad at the moment... Should go to sleep. Skipping rhymes.

Status: Freaked out.
Dinner was Spicy Chilli Chicken Rice. And Soya Bean

Listening to My Favourite Things - Julie Andrews (The Sound of Music Classic!)

My coughing hasn't subsided yet. Looks like it'll go on for quite some time. There was a wrestling tourney today, but I didn't go because of the cough.

*Cough* *Hack*

The change in weather might have contributed to the cough, but I think straining myself to talk could have made it worse. I think I should talk less until this whole thing blows over :X

But knowing me... *Cough*

Oh, if the frequent readers don't know, BiteMark has a webblog. Ideas came from Triona while I made the design. Comments appreciated! It actually looks better than my own. Heh.

Right now, it's a combination of WoW, SW:KOTOR2:RotS, and other miscellaneous gaming. Oh, and movies too :D Caught 'Hitch' in the cinemas and enjoyed it thoroughly.

I heard that Malaysian Idol is coming out in the near future... Want me to sing the Do-Re-Mi song? Lol.

Nothing much to say
Since I am sick anyway

Status: Coughing
Dinner was mixed rice

Listening to the ringing in my ears

Work + Being Sick = Bad

Looks like I haven't fully recovered yet. Neither was I on the road to recovery. Or perhaps I was, but the fact that I played SW:KOTOR2 until 3am might have been detrimental to my health.

No rhymes... too sick and tired to think.

Status: Sick
Luch = McD's porridge

Listening to All You Want - Dido (No Angel)

Yup, just as I thought, work is piling up. Suffered from a mild fever yesterday. Managed to get some work done though. Drank lots of water, had a few panadols... And slept for about 10 hours.

Feeling better now, but am not fully recovered yet.

Sing a song!


Let your hand go of mine,
Let me drop into this bottomless abyss.
I tell you I'll be just fine,
As long as I'm alone in this unfriendly mist.
Let me stumble like I'm blind,
Let me live in this insufferable bliss.
I tell you I'll be just fine,
As long as I'm alone in this unfriendly mist.

As much as you want,
As much as you need,
I can't be there for you,
For I'm not perfect.
I'm not perfect.

No, don't take my hand for it is rotten,
And not my heart too,
I think you're pretty much mistaken,
For I'm not the one for you.
Why don't you ever, ever learn?
What I'm saying is true?
I think you're pretty much mistaken,
For I'm not the one for you.

As much as you want,
As much as you need,
I can't be there for you,
For I'm not perfect.
I'm not perfect.

As much as you want,
As much as you need,
I can't be there for you,
For I'm not perfect.
I'm not perfect.


Wow. Lyrics. Heh. Should bring this up with the band members. Lol.

Status: Partially bored.
No Lunch. Breakfast was heavy.

Listening to Tomodachi - Judy And Mary

Nanaca Crash! link for xazaru.

The severity of the situation is getting worse. I am getting sick and tired of the same thing over and over again. It's like watching repeats of the same soap opera over and over again. Except that I'm in it.

*Sigh*

Not feeling that great since yesterday. I think I might be suffering from a mild fever. So far it's been okay, but the sore throat and the inability to drink and swallow is beginning to annoy the hell out of me. Nose is beginning to run. Head feels heavy. Eyes feel tired.

I am currently truely sick,
and it's not a mind trick.

Status: Sick
Breakfast (nasi lemak) didn't taste so good.

Listening to more silence?


You are 'French'. In the nineteenth century, it
was the international language of diplomacy.
It is a 'beautiful' language, meaning that it
is really just a low-fidelity copy of Latin.

You know the importance of communicating
'diplomatically', which for you means both
being polite and friendly when necessary and
using sophisticated, vicious sarcasm when
appropriate. Your life is guided by either
existentialism or nihilism, depending on the
weather. You have a certain appreciation for
the finer things in life, which is a diplomatic
way of saying that you are a disgusting
hedonist. Your problem is that French has been
obsolete for a long time.


What obsolete skill are you?
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Heh. I'm French. HahahahAhahah. Totally not me.
Anyway... Am at the workplace right now. Kind of bored. Really. Zzzzz.ZZ. Still can't do claims yet. Bleh.

Maybe I should take more pictures and upload them to the net.

Probably need to clean up my desk in the near future... It's beginning to look like a snake pit.

*Sigh*

Bored. The weekend's almost here. Band practice this weekend. W00t. Not mine, mind you. Should be interesting. Also, there might be a meeting with xazaru and the rest of my uni gang...

Quick gimme something to do. Otherwise I might start thinking again X_X

Too much of something
Isn't good, don't you think?

Status: |30|^3|)
No breakfast... I need to cut down on food.

Listening to Silence

Most of this post is supposed to be yesterday's post, but blogger was unavailable then for the whole day. That was pre-lunch. This paragraph is for today. My mum lost her job thanks to an egoistical boss. She brought the company from almost nothing to what it is today, but he gave her a 24 hour notice for "not performing". Life is never fair. If she doesn't get the compensation that she thinks she deserves, she'll go industrial court for misconduct. Anyway, that's it for today. I found out during lunch yesterday.

Life's not fair,
but don't despair.

Status: Working...
Skipped lunch. Heavy breakfast.

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Yesterday I bought Dido's Debut album "No Angel". It's very good. Now that I have both her albums, I might have to go for the Hunter LP CD. Aiiieee.

I also accidentally poked myself in the eye with my glasses. How? I don't know. I tried to slip it between my ear, but it poked my eye instead. #_< Oww.

My hair is getting unwieldy. I might have to get a hairband or something soon. Or some very strong gel.

Work is going to pile up. Stuff's been happening. And things like that. I like being vague, eh?

I heard that Bruce Willis' new girlfriend is Lindsay Lohan. Ugh. I thought he would have better taste than that.

Just read Laine's blog. She has links that make you go OMG WTF LOLz WTF ROFLMAO OMG WTF?!!!!1111 Hahahaha.

Anyway... kinda bored at the moment. Should go off and update the RPG blog with today's entry...

There's no real rhyme today,
Because there's no time to play.

Status: Bored
Breakfast was Nasi Lemak. Yummmmmmmmm :9

Listening to Hands - Jewel

Something I got off my friend Xazaru (see the tagboard) on friendster. Heh...

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Procuratio Potissimus...

Message: Twelve Principles of Command

1.Objective. Always keep a clear goal in mind.
Without it, the lives you lose are meaningless.

2.Offensive. When given the chance, attack and
remain on the offensive for as long as possible.
The enemy is weakest when backing up, and so
are you.

3.Unity of Command. Always know who is above
and below you in the chain of command and what
they are doing. It will not only help you in times of
trouble, but it will also give you a better sense of
how your mission fits into the overall picture.

4.Strength. Never willingly enter battle at a
numerical disadvantage. Even the sloppiest army
can defeat you if it is bigger.

5.Economy of Force. Do not waste your effort and
supplies. Use just enough of your force to inflict
the maximum amount of havoc on the enemy in
the minimum amount of time. Save the rest of your
strength to exploit your gains or protect yourself
from counterattack.

6.Maneuver. Learn the value of maneuverability.
Being able to speed across the battlefield in a
coordinated wave of force can overwhelm the
toughest opponent with a minimum of bloodshed.

7.Surprise. The element of surprise effectively
doubles your force.

8.Intelligence. Information is like eggs, the fresher
the better. A good guess might win a battle, but a
bad one can eventually lose a campaign.

9.Simplicity. If a plan looks messy on paper or in a
computer simulation, it is too complicated to
succeed. The best plans often turn out to be ones
drawn in the dirt and explained with a few hand
gestures. A good solution applied with vigor
immediately is better than a perfect solution ten
minutes later.

10.Maintenance of Morale. Instill pride and sense
of duty, worthiness, and loyalty into your soldiers.
Keep them informed, rested, and happy. Officers
should visit the front often, not to meddle but for
personal contact with the troops.

11.Administration. This is the dullest, most mind-
numbing of chores, but doing it properly is infinitely
better than facing the enemy without ammunition.

12.Mercy. Be firm and win the day, but once the
fighting is over, treat your prisoners with respect
and courtesy. Not only is it the correct and moral
thing for a soldier of the Star League to do, but
once enemy soldiers hear of your merciful
treatment, they might also be more willing to
surrender.

-From "A Primer to Tactics and Strategy": 34th
Edition, edited by General Aleksandr Kerensky,
SLDF Press, 2742 (Battletech)
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Anyway, it's a good read. Things are in turmoil as I start this new level. As with most RPGs, the evil main boss somehow got away. I guess I need to grind a fair bit before moving on. Aiiieeee.

I am thinking of restarting my RPG blog. Hahaha. The comedy. Or at least I think it's funny. I have written an entry down, but haven't published it yet. Please do comment on that blog if you have read it. I want it to be witty like Turn Signals On A Land Raider and 8-bit Theater.

A few years back, I wrote a self-made comic called Love Love Mood: A College Love Story (LLM:ACLS, or LLM for short). I think I might recreate the comic, with the same characters, and same plot. The story revolves a guy who enters a college. He meets up with a girl by accident (literally). It's like a tribute to Eisu's old heart warming love story comic Gomen Nasai! while trying to remain fresh with the genre. However, I made only 8 to 10 pages of it before I gave in to laziness (scanning is such a b!tch) and lack of inspiration. Some may consider it a sappy love story with fairly... interestingly off the wall characters. I even put Akira Yagashiro (my old old old pen name when Akira was still a new anime, yes that old.) as a character in there. The thing about LLM is that each comic is written and drawn at the same time. Each page comes out once in every 2 days. I think I overworked myself there when I was still studying.

Anyway, 3 big projects to do now. I wouldn't be able to them all, but I think I should be able to do one of these at least. (The third being my Post-WWII RPG project.) I should be able to do at least 2 of those concurrently even when overburdened with work. Should get a keenspace account or something for the comic. However, it will eat into my (a)gaming time, (b)online gaming time (c)being outside with friends. However, I think things should work out.

There is no beginning, there is no end.
Just reach out and grab my hand.
I will pull you to safety as I always do.
And you know how much of this is true.
Hey, it's just me, and I'm an altruist.
Living in a world of ignorance but not bliss.
The path to the future is never certain.
And never let that be your burden.
For everyone else has to suffer the same,
and no one should ever take the blame.
So take my hand and we will see.
The future that's meant to be.

Status: Leveled up!
Lunch was rice + telur dadar + spicy ikan keli + sunquick cordial. All for RM3.50.

Listening to Kryptonite - 3 Doors Down

I have to admit, the last few weeks, I have been kind of in a bad mood. Well, not really bad mood, but definitely not in a good one. I apologize to anyone whom I had managed to unnescessarily been sharp towards.

I had lots to think about. Time is something I never gave myself ample of. So mashing the two together was not exacty the prettiest of sights. One by one, issues came up, and when they did, things started to happen... in a bad way.

Well, in the last couple of days ago, a few of these things came out at the same time. The compressed frustration was now mixed with a volatile catalyst. And shaken and stirred real good. So, I did one of the things that I rarely do. I got very angry, tired, sad, and depressed at the same time.

Now, usually, when someone gets all that, they unleash it at the person it was supposed to be directed at. I suppose I have a self-restraining control. So, I hurt myself. No, none of that suicidal tendencies kind of thing. Contemplated that when I was much younger, well, not really, but yeah... So on Saturday, I punched a wall. Well, I made sure it was wooden, and not brick, so there wasn't any permanent damage, so don't worry. I also made sure I didn't go full out unlike the last time around.

I suppose when I think about it, every time I got into depression or frustration, I had this urge to inflict self-hurt. Used to kick walls, punch them, hitting my head against a wall or desk...

*Sigh*

Yeah, that's just me. That's how I handle things.

Oh, wait, that's not the end of the story. Somebody promised me that the next time he hears that I inflict another self-injury, he will personally beat me up. Now, as much as I know my limit on pain, I don't think anybody else does. So I suppose that's a deterrent of sorts.

Anyway, I think with things cleared up, I think I'm good to go for the next level. Hahahaha. I suppose I just defeated the enemy boss for this level with the help of my party.

I think that life's quite good,
If I don't spend the time to brood.

Status: Enlightened
Dinner was Chicken Rice. And it was good

Listening to Running - No Doubt

So far the weekend has been crap. Real bullcrap kind of crap. I want to sleep, but I can't. And I won't. At least not now.

So many things to think about. Nothing's ginving me any directions in my life. Too experimental.

I think that's the reason why I play so many games. Escapism. I guess I am afraid. Each time I try, it hurts. Seeing other people hurts.

I hate being angry. I hate raising my voice. I hate to release my anger. I don't ever want anybody to see me when I am totally uninhibited. Mainly because I don't know what I am capable of.

Sometimes, I feel like I want to get away. From everything. The hurt. People. Everything. But everytime I will convince myself that I am a coward to do so. Stand up and fight for your right I suppose. The guilt of not doing so hurts as much.

I guess sometimes I have to learn to let go. A dream remains a dream. The past is the past. Physical pain is so beautiful sometimes. It makes you forget for that short moment about the emotional ones that you have to suffer.

I took a loaded gun and put it to my head,
then I pulled the trigger and soon I'm dead.

Status: Not so good. Having this painful feeling in my chest.
Dinner was fried rice and cincau

Listening to Jumper - Third Eye Blind

In 3 words, describe what life is to you.
Beautiful, Ups, Downs

You know, that cover by Counting Crows... Big Yellow Taxi, had this verse in the lyrics:

Now don't it always seem to go
That you don't know what you got till it's gone

Always appreciate what you have right now, because you can never know when it might go away. Life is chockful of surprises. Take life by the reins and steer it to your goal. Your family and friends are always there to catch you if you were to fall.

Am I that much a helpless romantic?
when all I can think about is the semantics?

Took a nap during lunch. Too tired. Zzzz. Ponteng Friday prayers.

Status: Sleepy
Lunch was a power nap

Listening to It's My Life - No Doubt

Take the quiz at dicepool.com

Ah, the d10! While you aren't actually a true regular polyhedron, you are the only die that makes logical sense--metrically speaking. Chances are, others see you as over-analytical or a goody-goody. While that may be true, you also have a gift for patience and tolerance. Growing up you probably had a calculator wristwatch that you never really needed to use (since you were faster on your own), and you probably aced all your classes (except for gym). You use the metric system almost exclusively, but are able to quickly convert in mid-conversation for the sake of your backwards Imperalist friends. You've coded in at least two different programming languages, and have created more original gaming systems than you'll ever admit. You're generally not a show-off, but you do take pride in being called either a geek or a nerd.

I think it's half true... Hahaha.

Anyway, it's another blog writing session. As you all might have not noticed, I added Sepet's Director, Yasmin Ahmad's Blog link to the top.

Lots of work today. And the next few days to come. Aiiiiieeeee~~~ Shouldn't actually blog and websurf too often, but boredom kicks in sometimes.

He watches his father from behind the door,
He can see them both, smell the whore.
His father wrapped his arms around the woman,
His passion heating, lusting like a demon.
He can't bear to watch them together,
Especially since the death of his mother.
Why can't dad be sad, can't he be in mourning?
Mom's been dead for a week, 3 am in the morning.
Little Joe looked again at the two of them.
Their bodies so close like stitched hem.
He took his eyes of them, eyes were teary.
He felt sad loosing both parents in the tragedy.
Mother had died in an crash,
Body broken, head bashed.
Little Joe can hear the strangers screaming,
The panting, the heaving, the outrageous moaning.
Little Joe didn't know where to go,
so off to bed did he took a bow.
He kneeled down and asked God "Why, God why?"
As his tears came down his cheeks, he heard a cry.
The man he used to call his father was dead,
so was his mistress at the foot of the bed.
Little Joe choked and gasped,
This isn't what he wanted, so he rasped,
"I don't want it to end like this
For I want to live in bliss,
With father and mother and I,
Why did everyone have to die?
It doesn't make sense when You kill everyone,
It simply doesn't get things done."
As he uttered those words, he dropped to the ground,
He fought for every breath, looking astound.
The very last thing he could see,
Was his mother, his father, and the cold blue sea.

Status: Uplifted
Skipped breakfast

Listening to Azmin taking out change from his pocket and dumping them on the table

Just came back from watching Sepet. Without spoiling the movie, I must recommend the film. I can't say enough praise about it. Excellent. Best Malay/Chinese/English movie of the year. Hell, the decade even. Lots of subliminal messages in the movie too. Catch it.

I will murder,
a little monster.

Status: Excited
Dinner was Salmon Bento! Japanese food

Listening to Yummy Gummy In My Tummy

Stolen off Booya King's LJ:

Sepet was pretty darned good. The story is simple cum generic, but the content was downright hilarious. The best part of the movie would be totally lost to non-Malaysians, but Malaysians would have a good time laughing at the depictions of our own state. It's charming to see the little things in our lives used as elements in a movie, and used very well.

I'd forgive the bad acting on the actors' part since they're not experienced actors. The funny thing is, knowing that they're not experienced, the moments when their act works really hit home. It simply won't be the same if famous faces played Jason and Orked; their unfamiliarity made them everybody, thus easier to relate. There are famous faces in the show (Harith Iskandar and Ida Nerida), but they played roles so irreverent that you forget their identities outside the movie.

See it because as Malaysians, you'll be the only ones who can enjoy this movie the most. If you wish to pass kudos, the director's blog is here. Check out her past entries to see the troubles she had with the Censorship board.

Also:

On The Daily Show International Edition:
Egyptian comics provide equal opportunity superheroes!
The Rock is the 'The Dude' with the BFG in the upcoming Doom movie! It's coming out in August. BFG stands for Bio Force Gun. Ha ha.

Anyway, back to some original content...
Weekend was tiring. Paintball is evilly good. It's one of those things that you want to torture yourself with because it makes you tingly in the inside. Or maybe that was the food I had earlier that day... Or was it lack of food...

Hm... I plan to keep my hair long for a fair bit. Let's see how far I can go :D

Dance the night away,
But don't go too far astray,
The night devils with eyes so fine,
will send shivers up your spine.
Clutch your throat, out of breath,
You will die an agonizing death.

Status: Sleepy
Lunch was mixed rice and iced Nescafe. Dessert was Banana Fritters

Listening to Baku Opera Battle (FF9) - Nobuo Uematsu

INTERNET'S BACK AT HOME~~~~~~~~~~~~

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~~~~

Paintball this Sunday XD
Team Nobody is looking for 2 more potential teammates. Heheheheh.

Status: Excited
Supper was Nasi Padprik

Listening to boredom singing bells in the belfry

Uh... I don't even know why I wrote that.

Need to call Austria later. Work related. Bleh.
Updated the links on top. Haha... Added the shop's webbie.

Paintball this Sunday. Sunday. Dunsay.
AhahAAhahahhaha

Team Nobody will return and fulfill the curse of their vengeance!
AARRRRRRRR~~~~~~~~~~

Connection currently sucks. The line keeps dropping.

A distance away, I see a ship,
Making a long distance kind of trip,
I made a fire from a torch oil-bound
And razed the vessel to the ground.
All the people aboard were screaming.
And I stood there, hapilly giggling.

Statu: BOOOOOOOOOOOORED
Lunch was KFC. Finger lickin' good

Listening to...

Bored. Bored. Bored.

Bored bored bored.

Playing scrabble online.

Erk. Bah.

Brain too dead to think
Just right on the brink
of exploding from all the reading,
and the change of the wordings.


Status: Bored out of my brains... mmmm... brains...
Lunch? What lunch?

Listening to more aircond!

The Phantom Tollbooth rocks. Here are some excerpts from the book. Written in 1961, the play on words in the book is excellent.

According to Azmin and the rest, I have a fanclub in Singapore. WTG!

Yawning in the office. *Yawn*

Just got a call. Need to go to PD...

I hear the cries of men,
As the Heidenburg crashed to cement.

Status: Like that lar...
Breakfast was Nasi Lemak