Heidi

Less thinking, more work.

Xazaru's blog. Opinionated, fun and overall great guy. Helped me a helluva lot during my uni days. One of the few people whom I keep constant contact with from that era.

A great parody of Star Wars. Recommended.

My World of Warcraft character has reached level 37. She has 37gp and is targetting 90+ gp by the time she reaches 40. Lots and lots of money to grind. *Sigh* I should reach level 38 tonight.

Status: Sleepy
Lunch was mixed rice and iced Milo

Murder. Death. Kill

Pardon the incoherency of this posting. I am typing out as I think, so it may be a bit jumbled up.

When you are alone, you tend to think too much. I think I've said this previously some couple of months ago. Maybe a bit longer than a couple of months. You'd think so much, that you start thinking about something that you shouldn't have thought about. Perhaps something forbidden. Taboo.

On a different matter, I think I was rather harsh on Sunday morning (at about 2a.m.) to a bunch of people. I was rather cranky mainly because of lack of energy and being sleepy at the same time. I apologize to those whom I had offended, escpecially to Kuok because I snapped at him. Sorry dude.

My thoughts at the moment are incoherent at best. Chaos at worst. Lots of things to think about. To do. I don't know, I think I am getting offended easier nowadays than I was a year ago. Has my level of tolerance dropped that drastically? I can easily let something slide, a remark and all that, but nowadays I'll fight back. Is it a good change? Or a bad one? Only time will tell.

I think I need to take a look back at my grassroots. Why am I the person I am? Why am I not like everyone else? Lots of rhetorics, but I really need to ask myself this. Why am I so enclosed with my own space? Maybe it's because I have no exciting stories to tell. Maybe I don't want people to find out the person I really am. Maybe behind this innocent looking mask is a spawn of evil waiting to be unleashed.

I really don't know. I think that I'm losing my grip of reality at times. I want to hang on, but it's slipping away from my fingers. Little by little, bit by bit. I wonder if I'm insecure about things.

Is it because I try to be nice to everyone that everyone wants to step on me? At every opportunity is someone trying to take advantage of me? Am I becoming paranoid?

I don't recall being like this when I was younger. Am I evolving? Or am I devolving?

Or am I just a sad sod trying to gain attention?

I'm tired. Lethargic. Let me rest.

Status: Lost
Lunch in a while

Exploding Thingies

Whee. Tomorrow I'm off to Bukit Batu, Johor for some work. So wish me luck. Will be out of town for a couple of days at the very least. Worst case scenario, I'll be gone till Friday.

Anyway... things have pretty cooled down. Indulging myself in World of Warcraft, Dawn of War, work, work and more work. I don't know how I keep myself motivated, but I do. Heh. Maybe think less work more? Lolz.

Some poster on my tagboard (you can see him/her as "whateva" (this person will be referred as a male from this point on)) mentioned that my life is boring, dull, unexciting and so is my blog. If he thinks so, I wonder why he keeps on coming back to my blog to read my dull life. I don't know. I like stability. I like a little excitement here and there, but stability's the way for me. Things going on as routine, and stuff like that.

I wonder if people sometimes see me as the boring old...er young coot who's a party pooper. I think myself as a rational human being capable of rational thought. I think I am able to contain and control myself most of the time.

On another note, one of my office colleagues had a wedding dinner on Saturday. For me the food was great (though some of my other colleagues and friends thought it wasn't enough), the karaoke singing, the older folks dancing and all that. But the best part was the yam seng. First time ever for me and it was a blast. Yam Seng-ed 4 times and all at the top of my lungs. My voice still hasn't recovered fully yet even today.

Alright time to log off. Gotta watch wrestling, prepare clothes and maybe... just maybe get to play some games. Until next time. Cheers.

Status: Cheery
Lunch was Thai Chicken Rice and Shi Cha (Iced Chinese Tea)... I think it's spelt that way.

Sigh

Been a long while since I've posted.
Things happened. I'm single again. We parted in good terms though.

Anyway, been playing more WoW. Level 33 now. Made a bunch of Gnomeregan runs. Now I need to bring my skinning skill up to date.

Caught the midnight show for Star Wars ep 3 yesterday. Hahaha. It's good! Must watch.

Status: Tired
Lunch was a party. Heh

The Dawn of War on the World of Warcraft!

I finally managed to clock in a win in THQ/Relic's Warhammer 40K game last night. Was finally able to micro and macro like crazy. It took a fair bit of time to get accustomed to the system. Heh. Plasma pwns Marines!

My female Gnomish Warrior on World Of Warcraft Spinebreaker server reached level 26 last night. Didn't even have to grind. Hahaha. Currently sitting in Duskwood finishing off the quests. I do hope somebody buys my stuff off the Auction House in Ironforge.

After a long hiatus, I had a dream last night.

Status: Awake
Breakfast was a cold Nescafe Coffee Latte.

Fun!

I'm too lazy to put the listening thing anymore.

When you think about it, the greatest things in life are usually the things that we take for granted. Computers, cars, and the internet for example. The sky, the quiet serenity of a tranquil lake; little things, big things that you enjoy.

Sometimes you just forget to enjoy some of these experiences. Sometimes you forget the people whom you enjoy doing things like these. They too are part of some of the greatest things you can enjoy.

When was the last time you talked to your dad about small things? Hobbies that you share alike, or even asking why he enjoys doing whatever that he likes doing. Have you ever tried his hobby on your own free will? Have you looked at things from his perspective? As much as you want to fly free, sometimes it's great that the hatchling returns to its roost.

When was the last time you talked to your mom? Remember the times when things went bad and the person ended comforting you was her? Talks that you had about growing up and things like that.

I think I may have lost my way for quite sometime now. Sometimes I forget about my parents. Sometimes it's the little things that I do that annoys one of them. But they bear with me. Why? Because I'm their son. I haven't done anything bad or anything, but I think it's about time I realize that I just can't fool around too much.

Maybe it's just my upbringing. Maybe I'm different. Maybe I'm just bullshitting. Hahaha. Anyway, I think I've ranted enough for today. Here's a toast to life and to all mothers out there. Happy Mother's Day.

Status: Sober
Lunch was mixed rice

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Thanks to Rudy, I tried a search for my blog. Wow. It opened with 3.8K, and dropped to 1.6K before rising up consistently to 2.2K. Take that!

For those wondering, I do have a girlfriend now. Her name is Deborah, and she's a nice girl. She's also my friend's to-be-renamed-band's number 1 groupie. Be nice to her or else. :)

Status: Sick. Feverish
Dinner was french toasts. Lots of them