Was listening to Somewhere Over The Rainbow - Ella Fitzgerald


You scored as Strength. Divinatory Meaning: Intention is cause. Energy follows thought. Power without control is nothing.
Reverse Meaning: Too emotional. Not thinking things through.
You are impulsive and exciting. Some view you as reckless and inconsiderate. You draw people to you with your enthusiasm for life...however there is deeper side to you that you only reveal to a choice few if any.
Which of the Major Arcana are you?
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Instant messenger log. Username changed to protect the persons involved. I don't think anybody wants to be disturbed online.

Myself: dude
Myself: heya
Azmin : Ha ha
Myself: hi triona! if you're reading this too
Myself: and loco
Azmin : hi
Azmin : was that
Myself: heh
Azmin : Triona said that
Myself: Sorry folks. feeling rather utterly depressed at the moment. Can't say I'm going to be good company
Azmin : why lah dude
Myself: just something
Myself: don't worry about it..
Myself: haha making myself sound like a tragic victim
Myself: and making you guys listening to me talking crap
Myself: Can you just continue chatting with me into tomorrow?
Azmin : sure man
Azmin : are we starting a new scrabble thingie?
Myself: thanks
Myself: don't know
Myself: you can create the game first
Myself: so what are you guys doing over there?
Azmin : we are chatting right now
Azmin : with you
Myself: t5hat's nice
Azmin : and creating my avatar
Myself: heh
Myself: you know sometimes... when you do something, you're fucked
Myself: and when you do do something, you're fucked
Azmin : whadda
Myself: and when you do something, you think about it, and you regret ever doing it, but you can't change the fact that you have done it?
Azmin : of course
Myself: you know how much you want to change the past but you know you really can't.
Azmin : life's a bitch, you gotta fuck her...
Myself: then things in the present situation changes because of that thing you did
Myself: thanks loco
Azmin : just have to learn to move on...
Azmin : look forward, not backward
Azmin : can't change the past
Azmin : live with it, accept it
Myself: as much as you want to, i don't think it'll ever go away
Azmin : everyone's coming off a bad episode now ahmad. so am i. just cos i smile all the time don't meean i'm ok.
Azmin : "i carry a smile when i'm broken in two"
Myself: you think of the days when things were simpler
Myself: "but my smile's broken too"
Myself: nice critch
Myself: *crotch
Azmin : check it out man
Myself: *laughs*
Azmin : check out my avatar
Azmin : ....sssss..........
Azmin : My precioussssssssssssssss
Myself: i see only a crotch
Myself: heh
Azmin : uh... yeah
Azmin : that's the point
Azmin : as per locs
Myself: ha ha
Myself: sorry, can't really smile at the moment.
Myself: btw, happy valentine's day loco
Myself: happy valentine's day azmin
Myself: happy valentine's day triona
Azmin : is this why you're depressed?
Myself: partially, but not really it
Myself: got so many things in my head at the moment... it's a bit overwhleming. and depressing
Azmin : uh... okay...
Myself: i'm beginning to rant
Myself: and as much as i know you guys are trying to help me out, i
Myself: am the only person who can really help myself
Myself: I've got it bad for you Valentine . . .and that's gooood.
Myself: whoops
Myself: lol
Myself: ok i think i'm gonna sleep this off
Azmin : alright dude
Myself: you guys have fun, ok?
Myself: just don't let my bit of depression infect you
Myself: btw can i post this chat log on my blog?
Myself: just to remind myself of the words of wisdom?

Status: UTTERLY FUCKING DEPRESSED
Dinner was rice + Tom Yam with lime juice